I don’t know how to start this properly so let me just go straight into it. I don’t need to tell you this because i do all the time but you know that i’ve had my eye on you even since before i met you and after all this time im thinking that i was so right about being curious about you. Getting to know you has been by far one of the most exciting tender and loving experiences i’ve gone through lately. Once i told you i’ve never met anyone like you and it’s true! You’ve told me im beautiful inside and out but i think that also applies to you, especially to you.
You were kind ever since the first moment we started talking, trying to keep up with my rambles even tho you are quiet sometimes, never leaving me to talk by myself, so interested in anything i had to say, so careful and delicate when we both felt like something else was unreeling in front of our eyes, so kind and gentle yet clear, it was clear to me, clear that it was you.
I won’t say I wasn’t scared at first, cant deny that I still am sometimes, you got into my head so fast it felt like i was losing all common sense, you threw me off completely, you ran over me and stepped on my heart with a delicate pressure. I started getting excited to talk to you, i would drop what i was doing just to reply, i was interested in your own interests, I wanted to know everything about you, i still do.
I know i say sometimes that you are too much for me but, honestly, maybe i tease you to get over the fact that im the one who is overflowing with feelings and unsaid words. I wake up every morning just hoping to see you again, to be with you, to talk, to not talk much, to just be in your presence and i feel so certain that that’s how i want to spend my days from now on for the longest time i can. You continue to show me everyday why did i fall in love with you, you are so sweet to me, to your friends, to the people around you, so considerate even having your own struggles, always asking, always worried. You are so interesting! i dont want to know only about your interests that make the person you are, but also about your own believes, your fears, your experiences, i want to be part of you and your life, i want to contribute to the amazing person that you are, that’s why i’ll ask, if you want to be mine? officially now, let’s forget that we already talk about each other that way, it still feels like a big step, a step into something more certain, and safe, and scary but so so warm and steady, im so certain that i want you and only you. If you say yes, i swear, even if im also scared of loving too much, of screwing things up, of this intense feeling, i’ll push all that fear aside to make you the happiest boy in the world. so will you be my boyfriend, rafael?
txto