dearest,
i feel certain i am going mad again. i feel we can’t go through another of those terrible times. and i shan’t recover this time. i begin to hear voices, and i can’t concentrate. so i am doing what seems the best thing to do. you have given me the greatest possible happiness. you have been in every way all that anyone could be. i don’t think two people could have been happier till this terrible disease came. i can’t fight any longer. i know that i am spoiling your life, that without me you could work. and you will i know. you see i can’t even write this properly. i can’t read. what i want to say is i owe all the happiness of my life to you. you have been entirely patient with me and incredibly good. i want to say that – everybody knows it. if anybody could have saved me it would have been you. everything has gone from me but the certainty of your goodness. i can’t go on spoiling your life any longer.
i don’t think two people could have been happier than we have been.
txto