My parasocial & fictional relationship with Patrick Bateman is the one thing keeping me motivated. I first watched American Psycho because I kept seeing the “sigma” edits on TikTok and that’s when I fell into my obsession. My first watch was on August 4, 2025, and I proceeded to watch it 17 more times within the month of August. I am the self proclaimed number one fan of both the movie and the book. I began reading the nearly 400 page book in mid-August, and I was completely enamored. I have, since then, read the book an estimated 11 times. It is one of the only books I read on repeat (save for the Percy Jackson & other affiliated book series) and I love it so much. I have scoured the depths for books written in Bret Easton Ellis’ way, but nothing can deeply satiate me like American Psycho can. I have tried reading Lunar Park, I have tried reading The Rules of Attraction, and I have tried reading Glamorama. Let it be known, they all have amazing plots and overall I support and enjoy all of Ellis’ works thoroughly; they just don’t have Patrick. It’s not exactly that per se, it’s just the lack of such a statement character (Sean Bateman is definitely a close second behind Patrick) like Patrick Bateman that removes the pull factor for me. The entire AP debacle has fueled my everlasting, burning desire for Christian Bale aswell… we save that for another day. I cannot stand other people who like Patrick. He is my character, not anyone elses. My entire personality and the way I carry myself is fully based on both of his adaptations, whether that be film or book. Even petty details like the monotonous way Christian Bale conveys him in the 2000 film has slipped its way into my daily interactions. I am Patrick Bateman. I am not a “yumeshipper” nor a “selfshipper,” moreso a narcissist who deeply connects with the male counterpart of herself. No man will ever be able to physically or mentally satiate me the way the idea of Patrick Bateman does, and whether that reflects onto me more than anything else is completely up for debate.
The one thing that grates my cheese is people who mischaracterise Patrick, specifically the Lana Del Rey copecels on Tumblr & Pinterest who also do the same thing to Nina Sayers. I absolutely despise you all for many reasons but it is 11:16 P.M. and I have things to do tomorrow morning. This can wait.
I’ve also decided to dedicate this TXTO to my favourite person in real life, Patrick from McDonalds in the next town over from me. He is so perfect. We have been playing eye tag and flirting with eachother for perhaps the last 3 months and I want to punch him in the face. He is beautiful and his body is quite optimal. Large ass, sleeper build arms with a tiny twink gut. He is the perfect weight and he’s not chubby but definitely not quite as skinny. He has the build of a large man who is healthy. I would estimate his height to be around five feet and nine inches; maybe taller. He’s so beautiful and I love him so much. If I were to compare him to any living person, it would be Erik Knudsen playing Robbie Mercer in Scream 4 if his nose was slightly bigger. I carnally desire him and I have been stalking him since we met.
txto