andrew or andy. nineteen. any prns ever. prince of heart. derse dreamer. intj. jan♒︎.

not an end but the start of all things that are left to do i’m severely mentally ill (bpd, autism, and suspected processing diagnosis schizophrenia) so it impacts my day to day life, since i’m unmedicated (old people don’t believe in medicine apparently). I also have an overactive imagination which is cool I guess, until it gets in the way of my social skills clicks tongue guess that’s the way of the drew. I also listen to music a lot, I like glass animals, gorillaz, hozier, conan gray, olivia rodrigo uhh.. yeah idk. there’s more. also i kiss my boyfriend liam and girlfriend sarah harper from the hit movie obsession on the daily.

i’m the type of person to associate my favorite colors with certain people in my life, and i’ll be oddly specific with it too based on how i view said person. i’m #2a6666, or dark teal, but i’m also neon yellow. if I give you a color, that means you’re important to me. if you get a dumb color, or one that’s dull, that doesn’t mean anything. promise. there’s plenty of colors to go around. there won’t be the same of every color, I’m just so flexible and versatile

i identify as the wasteland baby album a whole lot, i resonate with a lot of the themes in it. love, grief, loss, acceptance. it might sound goofy, but hozier is one of the main artists i listen to because i relate a lot with the themes of his songs (religious trauma, queerdom, love and hate), so much so that i stole his name because of that damned transgenderism shakes fist…. curse you genderfluidness…. urgh…

i’m 420 friendly and kink friendly (judge not, and you will not be judged) i also don’t see myself as “human” in the conventional sense. I’m like, a little alien almost. I think this might be the autistic cluster-b delusions talking. i’m not therian, far from that. don’t label me as that. I don’t wanna label myself as that. I don’t fucking like the community, and i’m just Not Therian. Or Otherkin. Don’t label me Ever.

let’s talk apology video on youtube.com okay. not really, the header was just a funny [bear voice]: inside joke with myself since I can’t talk to anyone right now #blessthisMESS. but trigger warning ig..

i have sadomasochistic tendencies and i publicly speak about it on occasion, or allude to it. if i ever post about it, then, look the other way? don’t pay it no mind? it’s How i cope with, wEll, immense famiLial trauma and past sexual trauma, and it’s the only way i can grapPle at control in the situations i’m in. I only cope through drawing out my burning carnal desires for it (ok. that’s a joke.), and no, I’ll never post that shit. my hunger for control is Insatiable. I Need Control pumped through my thin, dehydrated Veins.


txto