June 3rd 2026
Fish
Broken phone
This year sucks Sometgung always goes wrong for me How quickly things go wrong in an instant
Masculinity us about being tough tough posture behavuoir mannerisms nothing like feminity
I dont really want to be masculine because it can ge disgusting too
At the end og the day everuthinh I do is problematic I am not special why would I want to be Have you looked at yourself in ugly freak who causes embarrassment being special lol
I dont need anything because I domt desrver anything Truth of reality quote
Fish
Reality is an illusion
To let go learn what holding on means Truth is reality doesn’t matter everything will still suck I cant chage it i can prepare
I realize i am the problem Something always stresses me out Subs onky work if you dont care push pull Oder online is useless waste of money last time I wasted 30 dollars it finished and it doesn’t ever taste good buy what lasts like shoes that could last years control hunger Why do I desire things why do I desire being less hairy or masculine or special or stability let go od desire and obsessing over these things has never helped like fear desire is useless control desire Desire to be less ugly all I can do is not care obsessibe and freak out over it has never helped It doesn’t natter if existence or reality matter Something always goes wrong for me I dont really want to be masculine Reality check im ugly
Last year 2025 It wont come back no matter how much I miss it I never expected it to be that good
But why do I desrve that I dont deseve anything I dontvwant ti look down ok others nor do i care about them and jobless person doesn’t get to talk Last December failed test
let thought be there let it come and go flow the sa.e way it came it has nithing to do wuth ne true desires found by research so i can let go i xan move once ive resolved it the thought is useless it tells me wgat i dont want dont respond its not the same as mu real resolve
The more i don’t it the more it happens This need to be masculine to ve hairlesss to be how I want to be I need v shaped jaw narrow face less hairy thin brows straight brow Why do I want masculinity Letting go is moving on Let emotions and desires go When i feel horny it’s ego and desire when I see how ugly my face is at store it comes back to reality it’s not even rationa Thoughts come and go always they will never stop coming it’s a flow of river you cant push it back all you can do is not get caught in the flow learn to ride the wave Eyebriws eyes hair gyperoigmebtation narrow Not everything my brain tells me is true or has meaning let it come and go I am even more uglumy and repulsive then I realize I don’t want to be well like I wabt to be left alone I dont want to look down others I dont care about the father role or family I just trying t8 get hired right now I went out of my way t9 searxg those pics of yaoi I didn’t question desire I dont try to control or focus on wgat I do want to be asexual for peace apartment Real resolve comes through studying problem saving research ugly people dont get to talk or eat dverything you turns bad no one want yiu anywhere exceot those that yiu dont want to just suffer deatch wnd move on control emotions reality check im ugly repulsive people stare at me no wpuld want ne at there store all i can do is not care and bad things wilm happen to me tbis year sucks inlike 2024 all i can do is something usedul I cant control i shouldny loomfor control i should learn to deal with navigatectge bad things by suffering crying instead of freaking out move towards a goal future o want I miss winter Also it doesn’t matter opps or order exist everything will stick suck for me navigate
Focus on studying
The more sensitive you are the more it shows up Thoughts come and go let them be there it’s has nothing to do with you noy everything your brain tells you is true let go Like 2025 don’t be delusional no one would want an ugly person working ar tgere store Dont be lazy let laziness push you to get things complete
txto