Hi my name is Lycoris or u can also just call me Lyco, and yes, i named myself after the flower. The infamous “someone in this anime is gonna die” flower. i love that flower and what it represents.
I’m bodily 20 years old, however I am 13-16 yrs old as a headmate. DO NOT TREAT ME LIKE I AM DUMBER THAN U!!! DONT TREAT ME LIKE A KID unless we’re really close (Laboratory Family) and don’t belittle, patronize or infantalize me. I have autonomy issues and i lash out or get defensive if i feel like my autonomy is being threatened at all. i’m practicing emotional regulation tho so i might disregard it altogether and just live and let live. its weird right now in my head.
this seems like a disclaimer more than an extended, but i dont like being misunderstood and i have strange social ocd-esque paranoid idea of reference and magical thinking (using psychiatric terminology i feel like the nerd emoji) and end up misjudging social interactions. i have my own reality that i live in and reject this one, and i don’t like feeling like im being subjected to being put in a box, or rather idealized a certain way. i find other people’s thoughts (and honestly, sometimes, emotions) poisonous and cruelly binding, and will forever reject this reality and anyone’s perception of me. this doesn’t mean u cant perceive me how u want to, who am i to control how others see me, how others see their world? just don’t try to tie me down to your perception, it won’t work. it will hurt and disappoint both of us.
I dont like getting close to people and i find it hard to connect with others, at the same time that depends on who u r. but if i feel unsafe around you i might be less inclined to share my thoughts with you, and i might retreat. i can’t even describe the way my brain works to you, bc it might sound like stupid word salad to u or might not make sense. it doesn’t make sense to me either, its ok. i know im overexplaining myself, and i know that i’m paranoid about being watched. i’mma still post this like a dumbass, tho.
my interests are anime, manga, visual novel, music, collecting random ass things, looking at art, making art, going down random rabbit holes, studying social sciences, and recently i have picked up learning HTML and CSS. i may migrate to nekoweb (i have, i just need to learn to sharpen my coding skills. HTML and CSS is how i want to make digital visual art. its pretty and a nice way to express myself. i wanna make character shrines!!) i have other interests that i may or may not mention. ok i’ve typed enough. Bai.
txto