I’m so angry. I’m so God awfully angry why do people speak to me like I’m stupid? I’m not stupid. I’m not stupid I am just homeless I am not Incapable I am not retarded I am not some fucking child. I know how to work I know how to understand basic things I know how to write a damn cv. I am So Angry.
Everyone just tests me. Everyone talks to me like I’m stupid, why does everyone think I’m stupid. God I regret pursuing a diagnosis for anything. Nothing is wrong with me. I’m fine. Everything is fine I am doing fine you people just treat me like some fucking idiot. I hate every stupid person I’m forced to share this planet with I’m so angry.
Why does the universe hate me so much. I must have been a dictator in a past life.
My friend bought me a bunny plush from the charity shop today. I named him Constantine. He and Cyrus are the only ones making me feel sane. I hate my neighbour. I hate everyone.
I have autism NPD and HPD which means actually nothing can calm me down when I start losing it and I actually can’t do anything to stop myself from lashing out you just have to let me sob and scream and tear myself apart until I tire myself out.
━━━ Valentine.
txto