i seriously cant see a future for myself, atleast not a successful one, and i honestly feel like i have one or two years max left in me because i doubt with my chronic depression my lifespan is long. there’s honestly no saving me because i don’t even have the incentive to heal. i’ve tried everything and i’ve just been stuck depressed for too long i don’t want to get better. god i need to stop being a stuck-up so fucking bad but oh how tired i am
i don’t even want to draw anymore. i don’t see myself drawing like i used to. and i know if i give up now i’m going to fully lose it but holy fucking shit i’m tired. i don’t want to talk to anyone about my problems because no one wants to accompany a sad slump 24⁄7. im so exhausting to be around honestly i’m also annoying as shit because why the fuck do i keep being vulnerable its actually embarassing
i don’t want to keep being friends with anyone so they dont have to deal with the grief of losing me. i’m already a lost cause honestly wow im so fucking tired. i cant even think straight omfgihate myself i hate myself so bad. i’m never gonna see any hope for myself when i think like this everyday and i’ve tried i’ve fucking tried but nothing works and oh my god it’s not getting any better
i really hope everyone doesnt end up like me i wouldnt even wish this upon my worst enemy. i love everyone too much that i don’t want them to go through the same shit i do. i guess that’s why i try my best to be there for my friends even tho icant be there for myself lol wtf i’m sick
omfg ishould Shut hte Fuck Up Honestly
txto