dark inner side of my eyelids = refers to the pitch black darkness you see when you close your eyes
carmen = derives from latin word defining ‘song’,’ ‘poem,’ or ‘verse.’
(simplify) blushing mortification = shame
morpheus = greek god of dreams / lit. death or eternal dreams
chromatic recollections = to herself or her mind
memory’s reproach corrodes my interiors = a memory that carries shame and causing irreversible deterioration to her mental health
poisonous darling’s illecebrous love = poisonous allure (could also be defined as femme fatale)
torpid hush = stagnant silence
fructuating = creating a fruit
fatamorgana = an illusion of an area of water in the desert or on a road (often used by sailors going astray)
deprecatory railleur of the cowardly epithets = to make fun (or break mentally) of the weak
winsome = attractive
gossamered = jump from
“each convinced their affliction singular, revelatory” = sarcasm, used as an insult by chloe for those who claim their love was fate or eternal, etcetera.
“in all her moth-dusted corridors of memory” = has no meaning to sentence, better to simplify as just memory or her entire life
“has she ever consented to the vulgar democracy of “normal”?” = being understanding and having empathy is considered the norm
“ravenous, inane curse of Achilles’ heel” = a curse that targets our weakness– achilles’ heel.
apotheosis = romanticize
txto