i don’t know what i’m going to do ifeel so hopeless ireally ahv e nothign going for me and tje wa y peopl e havebeen treating me recently doesnjt mak e me feel any better ,ijsut really want to di,e , ontop of th at iliterllay hav e no future with anything, all my friendships are unstable, im not good at anythi ng, iahve no goals , iahve no aspirations, i’m jsut so tired i’m sick adn tire d of everything of ho w people treat me of how ifeel of how everythign is i’m too weak for anythi gn
idont eve n see myslef lliving another 2 years bec ause i jsut fdotn want to, idont want to heal, i dont wan t to get better, idont want to make a life for myself ijsutwant to die i dont have an y reason not to, everythi ng i Did hav e to keep. me going is gone, everyon e just upsets me adn tells menothjng but empty promises, idont feel love d at all idont have anything,
idotn ev en have drawing becaus e im just not good at it adn idont hav e the energy for it idont have the energy for anythign isut want to die tjers so much wrong whti me i jsut cant deal with it anymore i reall y dtn want to do any of this anymore i jsut ca nt take it ontop of my alre ayd pre-existing problems wjtih msy elf adn th e things around me ihate myself ihate all of it i wijsh ididnt kno w anyone so icoudl jsut die ad no on ,e woudl eve n notice
i jsut wa nt to diealready ad n no one is maki ng me feel any bette r ,i’m heavily disordere d adn everyo ne is jsut making me feel Worse everythi ng makes me feel Worse icant hadnle anything ic an t do anything i cant
beig n so heavily neglected and sidelined for tj e past 7 mon ths has mad e me realis e how little iacutally matte r in tej grand scheme of things. idont matt er i can t do this anymore ,ihae no future. with anythi ng or anyone and tje se last few mont hs ahve really shown me that,
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