i don’t know what i’m going to do ifeel so hopeless ireally ahv e nothign going for me and tje wa y peopl e havebeen treating me recently doesnjt mak e me feel any better ,aft er beign emotionally abusedj for lik e 7months ijsut really want to di,e , ontop of th at iliterllay hav e no future with anything, all my friendships are unstable, my relationship, im not good at anythi ng, iahve no goals , iahve no aspirations, i’m jsut so tired i’m sick adn tire d of everything of ho w people treat me of how ifeel of how everythign is i’m too weak for anythi gn

idont eve n see myslef lliving another 2 years bec ause i jsut fdotn want to, idont want to heal, i dont wan t to get better, idont want to make a life for myself ijsutwant to die i dont have an y reason not to, everythi ng i Did hav e to keep. me going is gone, everyon e just upsets me adn tells menothjng but empty promises, idont feel love d at all idont have anything,

idotn ev en have drawing becaus e im just not good at it adn idont hav e the energy for it idont have the energy for anythign isut want to die tjers so much wrong whti me i jsut cant deal with it anymore i reall y dtn want to do any of this anymore all iam is abuse d recentlyj adn i jsut ca nt take it ontop of my alre ayd pre-existing problems wjtih msy elf adn th e things around me ihate myself ihate all of it i wijsh ididnt kno w anyone so icoudl jsut die ad no on ,e woudl eve n notice

i jsut wa nt to diealready ad n no one is maki ng me feel any bette r ,i’m heavily disordere d adn everyo ne is jsut making me feel Worse everythi ng makes me feel Worse icant hadnle anything ic an t do anything i cant

beig n so heavily neglected and sidelined for tj e past 7 mon ths has mad e me realis e how little iacutally matte r in tej grand scheme of things. idont matt er and tj e faster i get on with it tj e better for everyon e around me becua se itowuld do nothi ng but benefit every one. mys elf included, i cadnt wa it to just kill myselfj ireally can t do this anymore ,ihae no future. with anythi ng or anyone and tje se last few mont hs ahve really shown me that, iho pe ifanyone is ev en reading this they regre t how tjey treat ed me for so long

i’llbe 17 forev .er adn im happy withj that


txto